I felt like crying today … while I was driving to work, I wanted to itch my belly so badly but couldn’t because, as I heard, it would leave marks!! Wish I could do sth to make it STOP, esp. when I’m seated at work and people are all around, I’d start to get unpleasant and intense all over body itching …
I miscalculated again … I’d turn my 7th month after a week time …
In a week time I’d be in my 7th month …
And as usual, I was surfing some pregnancy sites, and got upon an interesting birth story, once I started reading it I just couldn’t hold in my tears, the story touched my heart deeply and my eyes filled up with so much tears.
It never occurred to me until this moment how scary it is to give birth, I’m not sure if I’m strong enough … it got me really worried …
On the bright side, the day before yesterday, my sister’s friend aunt was in labour, dilated to about 5 cm, and ready to deliver. My sister happened to be at the hospital, luckily, she knew the operating Doctor (had her lab coat was with her), so she was allowed in the operating rooms and got to see the whole thing. I won’t go into much detail, but my sister described it as a ‘wonderful experience,’ not to be missed!!
This totally changed my sister’s view about giving birth (since it wasn’t pleasant for her), because when she gave birth to her 1st baby, she had induced labour, and had other complications on her 2nd baby, and got a c-section for both.
Hope things would be better for me …
I’m getting so much bigger, shouldn’t I worry or as they say: ‘better safe than sorry.’ Does that give me the green flag to eat whatever I want as long as it’s healthy?? My husband’s like, ‘no no no, you can’t eat fried potatoes and you can’t have this and that!’
It’s really good to treat yourself from time to time with whatever that feels just right and grab a bag of crisps or a bar of chocolate! It feels even more right to have vanilla ice-cream that’s rich in calcium esp. when you’re feeling down about your weight … defintely yummie … is it time for dinner yet?
The list goes on and on. I know for sure I shouldn’t take drugs or use any sort of chemical products that are known to effect pregnant women, which I’ve surely tried to avoid in the past 4 months of my pregnancy, but as far as I know I can’t always trust what they say. Sometimes it doesn’t seem to make sense esp. when someone comes up to me and says: ‘you can’t wear your car seatbelt or you can’t walk up the stairs?’
It’s not like I’m racing the winds or climbing the Himalayas!
Two more days and I’ll be done with my computer course and I’ll be going back to work and I really miss my mates …
Pregnancy … a motherly experience … it’s love … mixed feelings of guilt and unavoidable FAT. I’d say … the most terrible thing about it is the weight gain; increasing from a fit 49.5kg to a breathless ??kg, really I can’t keep track of my weight gain anymore. Other than that, it’s not how I pictured it to be; how so many moms and grandmoms described it as being ‘tiring’ and ‘painful’ event. True to some extent because it’s not the most exciting experience I’ve ever had, but it’s very fulfilling in a way to know that I’m awaiting a new life, and to know that my husband will always be there for me … supporting me in every little way, and esp. putting up with me.
It’s been a terrible habit of mine lately to toss and turn around in bed; trying so hard to find a comfortable spot, and I end up poking my hubby in the ribs, back, and God KNOWS where else … taking almost more than half of the bed space and all the bed cover. I’m glad that we’re still married …
I’d say that pregnancy is divided into two parts; expecting phase and a phase where you don’t know what to expect. It sometimes leaves me in doubt, and other times I feel like a balloon, particularly when I look down to my belly-button that looks like it’s ready to POP!!!
That’s how it is …
Five minutes …
It took me ages today at work to figure out that I was 119 days into my pregnancy, meaning 17 weeks; which is equal to 4 months or so … whatever!!
It would’ve been a great privilege to have Einstein’s brains, ooh well! Throughout my life I’ve always wanted to know how it would have felt to ace at least one math test, but I never managed to deal with odds, evens, nasty fractions and ugly decimels, all belonging to that same category they call figures or numbers.
Life and math … ?? What is the connection??
Today was one of those days I felt like watching a good movie but I was just too sleepy. My usual day would be spent with my husband sitting on the bed, cuddled in his arms, watching some of his favourite comedy shows like Still Standing, Yes Dear and most of the other funny shows on Paramount Comedy Channel which I learned to enjoy in the past 6 months of our marriage, just for the sake of living only because I’m a person who’s ready to compromise.
Honestly I’m more into realistic drama and true stories and one of my favourite channels is the Discovery Channel I used to stay up late to watch Crime Night on Thursdays, though not anymore because my hubby records all my shows on the TIVO, thanks goes to him for that. For those that are not familiar with the tivo, it’s something that works like a VCR with a huge memory, and you can rewind and fast forward any show you’re watching, without the need for a tape. Amazing … it’s technology!
But what I look forward to the most is watching with my hubby Home and Away, my recent favourite soap opera and which again I learned to enjoy watching with my hubby …