I think I’ve lost interest in my blog. I’m uncertain why, but I’ve felt this way every since I left to Scotland. So I’ll leave everyone with a baby post because it’s the only thing that brings me some sort of accomplishment:

I’ve been taking pictures of Hassan on the 4th of each month since he was born and as soon as he turned one I just stopped. I’m still not sure if I should go on doing so or not.

The past month I’ve noticed that my baby wanted to play with toys, real toys and at last! I can’t wait until he starts watching cartoons …

A couple weeks ago, he was stuffing my things in secret hiding places like in between the bed, under the carpets and sofas too. I keep on losing my things now.

When I bathe Hassan he tries to reach out with his hands for the runny water but then he gets frustrated when he can’t. He can’t understand the concept of fluids and solids yet.

When I was in Aberdeen, I took him to Asda one day and he did a little scene. He wanted to crawl on the floor and I wanted to leave. He screamed and then blocked the way. I had to pick him up quickly and he started to kick, slap but not bite lol.

I’m still overwhelmed by sadness which clung to me ever since yesterday night when I said my goodbyes to Ananyah. She’s so much sweeter in person. We’ve finally met. Our meeting point was near Marks and Spencer and she quickly recognized us from Hassan lol. I didn’t think he’d be that obvious. 

Anyways, we talked about so many things, mostly about our lives, on our way to Pizza Express and the place was so packed, I’m so glad we even found a table. Hassan wasn’t an angel and he was the only loud baby around. He kept dropping things on the floor for Ananyah to pick up, but she didn’t mind and suddenly he wanted to self-feed too. He made a bit of a mess!

Once we were done, we talked more as we walked Misho back home. It was fun I hope we can meet again before I leave on Sunday *sigh!*

Next on my list: Chikapappi and Reema.

I had nothing to do and before something comes up, I decided to change the b-day ticker .

BEST:
1. Male friend: my husband and dad.
2. Female friend: I don’t have one.
3. Vacation: Spain, Saragossa (buying freshly squeezed orange juice from the local vendor).
 

WORST:
1. Time of day: 2pm, when I have to leave work.
2. Day of the week: Saturday.
3. Color crayon: blue is my favourite and maroon is the worst colour ever because that’s what we had to wear to school.
 

LAST:
1. Person you talked to that goes/went to your school: Obsessive Compulsive.
2. Talked to on the phone: Wanetta
3. Text: I got an automated sms.
4. Person who Instant Messaged: no one.
 

TODAY:
1. What are you doing now: I’m at work, doing this tag. 
2. Wearing: black.
 

TOMORROW:
1. Is: Monday.
2. Got any plans: I need to pack my bags.
3. Goal: In general? My goal is to stay awake as long as possible. 
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: I have to wake up early to go to work.
 

FAVORITE:
1. Number: 4, I like even numbers.
2. Song: Seven seas, Babyface.
3. Color: Blue.
 

CURRENTLY:
1. Missing Someone: my dad and mom, they’re on a plane to the UK.
2. Mood: I feel down.
3. Wanting: My baby, I want to pinch his cheeks.
 

TRUE/FALSE:
I am a cuddler: T, to some extent.
I am a morning person: F, I’d like to be.
I am a perfectionist: F, I’ll go crazy if I was.
I am an only child: F, I’m glad I’m not.
I am currently in my pajamas: F, but I wish I was.
I am currently pregnant: F. I’m 11 months, 3 weeks, & 5 days postpartum. 
I am currently suffering from a broken heart: F, but I’m always suffering from other things!
I am left handed: I’m a rightie.
I am addicted to Blogging: I’m not sure.
I am online 24/7: F, though I could.
I am very shy around the opposite gender: F. Why should I?
I can be paranoid at times: T, especially when I’m late.
I currently have a crush on someone: T, my husband.
I currently regret something that I have done: T, I regret not having it done earlier.
I enjoy country music: T, I enjoy soft rock too.
I enjoy smoothies: T, I love strawberry smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone: T, it’s the only way to catch up with things going on.
I have a hard time paying attention at work: T, I have a problem paying attention always.
I have a hidden talent: T, I can sing lullabies.
I have a lot to learn: T, I want to learn how to tap dance.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: F, I hate keeping secrets.
 

ANGER:
1. Are you currently mad at someone? Yes, at my co-worker!
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper? Reem.
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? I threw a book at my sister and one mineral bottle at a driver’s van, it missed both times. 
4. Ever had something thrown at you? I don’t remember.
5. When you’re mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream? Yell.
 

EXCITEMENT:
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a surprise party for you? Yes, I get them all the time.
2. Are you easily excited? Very.
3. What are you most excited about? Winning.
4. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought? I won, I won!
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be? Ice-cream!
 

SELF-DISCOVERY:
1. Name: Pearls.
2. Where were you born? Kuwait.
3. What’s your main goal in life? Make a child’s dream come true.
4. How do you want to die? I want to die as far away as possible from anyone I care about.
 

OPINIONS:
1. Sex before marriage? I’m against it.
2. Gay Marriage? Yuck!
3. Lower the Drinking age? It’s wrong to drink in the first place.
4. Recycling? I’m 100 % for it.
1. What was your latest dream? I forgot.
2. Have any of your dreams come true? Nope.
3. What was the weirdest dream you’ve ever had? I don’t get weird dream.
Straight, Gay, Bi? Straight.
Do you have a bf/gf? I’m married?
Do you have a crush? My husband.
How many beds did you lay in yesterday? One.
What color shirt are you wearing? Black.
Name one thing that you do everyday? Checking blogs.
What color are your walls? yellow.
How much cash do you have on you right now? 70 Kd.
I can’t wait till…? I travel.
When was the last time you saw your dad? at mid-night.
What did you have for dinner last night? cheesesticks, burgers and baked potatoes.
What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone? my sister’s pajamas.
What website(s) do you visit the most during the day? my hotmail.
Does anything hurt on your body right now? my head.
 

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Have you ever failed a class? yes, highschool.
2. Have you ever sung in front of a crowd? I danced.
3. Have you ever not taken a shower for 3 days? I take a shower everyday.
4. Have you ever slept with a night light? I won’t be able to sleep.
5. Have you ever danced in the rain? Never, it hardly rains here.
6. Have you ever lied? many times.
7. Have you ever had contacts? I’m wearing them right now.
8. Have you ever tripped over something stupid? a table.
 

PICK ONE:
1. Samosa, Pakora, Kebab: Pakora.
2. Bollywood, Lollywood, Hollywood: hollywood.
3. Love marriage, Arranged marriage: love.
4. Honeymoon, no moon: honey.
5. How many kids would u like 1,2, 3+: 4.
6. Kulfi, Ice cream: kulfi.
7. Shah ruk khan, Orlando Bloom: Bloom.
8. Meenar-e-Pakistan, Eiffel Tower: Eiffel.
9. Lahore, Khi, Islambad: I want to go to the Maldives.

I was checking out Digg.com and I found this article about MyDeathSpace.com.  I’ll quote this and it explains everything: “MyDeathSpace.com memorializes deceased MySpace users and picks up where a regular obituary leaves off. Click the MySpace Deaths link at the top to view the latest MySpace Deaths!”

This is so so so weird.

Going 20 years back:

20 Years Ago
I was four years old. I remember when I cried when I missed my first kindergarten’s open day.

15 Years Ago
I was somewhere in Aberdeen, Scotland. I remember going out with my brother and some friends of his in this adventure. We walked our way through a football stadium and we end up in a field. Then, we were chased by a dog followed by a farmer with a rifle. We ran for our lives and I climbed up a fence and my jeans got entangled but I quickly got out of it. I suffered terrible bruises.

10 Years Ago
I had so many friends when I was 14. I can’t keep track of them. I was even addicted to so many video games. I wasn’t doing very well in school and my grades were dropping below the average.

5 Years Ago
My happy years ever. I pulled my grades up and got accepted in Uni. There was this pattern I noticed over the years which helped me understand true friendship more: play mates, work mates, class mates, hang out mates, phone mates, and study mates.

3 Years Ago
I went to London for the very first time and I attended so many excellent plays. Started to dream of my future husband and I questioned my existence in life. I felt lonely. I graduated with honours, and got myself a job. I met my husband and my life just started to brighten up. I suddenly felt like a grownup.

Last Year
I started blogging out of boredom. I gave birth to my joy and we named him Hassan. I fell in love again.

This Year
There’s nothing so special about this year or at least not yet.

Yesterday
I checked out the sale at Souq Sharq. I ate at La Piazza with one of my college friends. Dropped her off and I went to Mohalab to buy my sister a gift certificate from SpaTime for her birthday. I got back home and hugged my baby for as long as I can. For dinner, we ordered food and watched Desperate Housewives. I had a terrible backache and my baby was getting quite fussy. So I had to pause everything and I put my baby to sleep and then I dozed off.

Today
Looking at my life, I haven’t done much with it. I’m not sure I will. I might as well watch more episodes tonight.

Tomorrow
I have no plans for tomorrow other than going to a weekly family gathering. I feel like going to the cinema afterwards.

Next Year
I’ll be a year older.

5 to 10 Years from now
I want to own a house. I’d love to be around the world.
 
I want to tag Jackie, Reema, Obsessive Compulsive and Ananyah. Enjoy!

As soon as I get to work everyday and there’s nothing to do, at once I’d check most of the latest posts. Then, I’d think of my own topics to blog about and if I don’t have any, I’d think even harder. When that doesn’t work,  I’d call up to check on my baby. Sometimes, I really feel that something is missing if there’s nothing to post about.