A little rough on myself
I’m in constant battle with my consciousness. My conscious tells me this is the best for my child. It always makes me feel guilty even when I know I’m not. Before I look at parents who had their drivers pick their kids as mean and selfish. Now I don’t think they are because some are really trying their best. Like myself. I drop Hassan to his nursery but our driver Mowla picks him up at the end of the day because I work. My conscious tells me I should pick him up myself. I care for him so much, but would picking him up myself make me a better mother? Not really. It’s going to make me super mom though! Is it possible to be there for him all the time? No. I’ll try to make it up for him in a way or another by just spending time with him after I come back from work, hope one day he understands that this is all for the best.
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March 24th, 2008 at 4:37 pm
Do not worry El simi will understand! And Hasan is spelled with one S:(
March 25th, 2008 at 1:22 am
honey not picking up ur son is SO not an indication of wat good parenting is!
go easy on urself!
March 25th, 2008 at 9:01 am
i know how much it means for a child to have his mommy or daddy pick him up from school especially at this tender age when he needs their energy and support.. however, if you are at work and there is no way u an leave on time to pick him up u can make it up to him when u get back home.. by giving him love, time, healthy food etc.. we cant be there for them all the time but at the critical age of 0-4 we need to make them feel secure and loved and that WE ARE there all the time.. they r young for a very short time.. there is no doubt that u are a very caring mother, trying ur best, and wanting the best for ur child.
March 26th, 2008 at 10:13 am
Mother sacrifice a lot for their children and you are a good mother.. don’t ever doubt that.. you have sacrificed a lot and you still will because he is your child.. there are times when you can’t be there for him you do so many other things..
Inshalla one day he will do for you what you are doing for him!
March 26th, 2008 at 8:35 pm
hasan, it’s weird but I like to spell his name with a double ‘s’
eshda3wa, exactly. I see things differently now.
Organic ku, I’m trying hard to make it up for him in every way. btw your a great mom mashallah, keep it up.
marzouq, gee thanks. I’m not doubting it but I feel so guilty when I think of myself first, and I can’t put myself first anymore. Nonowa’s right about saying the only time she has time for herself is in the shower. That’s how I feel too and I guess every other mother on the planet feels the same way too lol. Inshallah though I’d rather he needs me more than I need him
March 26th, 2008 at 10:33 pm
It is good to have such feeling. It is by itself means that you are a good mother. I can recall old days when you used to read book (s) to do you best for him. By the way i miss him.
March 28th, 2008 at 12:01 am
ajk, balaa fethayih!! miss you too