The other day I freaked out when Hassan broke my Sennheiser wireless headphone, but I didn’t pat him on the hands or shout at him, I just got up, fixed it with cellotape. So I thought why get angry over nothing. It’s still working.
Some days I feel like being a super housekeeper, I’d get out my broom, sweep the floors twice, dust all the surfaces and mob mop the floors three times, once with Dettol, once with Softy Lemon scented floor cleaner and finally once with Downy diluted in water. Then to top that, I’d lit a candle.
Other days like today I just can’t keep things in order, I’ve had some real problems with my babysitter, she’s always been enforcing her ideas upon me every since I got her. She has simply become a pain in the neck. I’ve always felt I can’t talk back at her because I needed her to take care of Hassan while I’m away at work. I feared she would hurt my baby one day but I’ve had it with her now. Now she wants to leave. I’ve given her a choice to stay for one extra month and she’d have pay her ticket from her own salary or I could find her another home she can work for an extra year. She wants to go with the first option. I quickly agreed.
In the past year I’ve had her, I couldn’t really trust her, she was just so nosy and rude to everyone. From day number one I made her feel welcomed, just like a sister and if I didn’t like something I’d overlook some matters just for the baby’s sake. I don’t know why I put up with her for so long, maybe because I thought about her little daughter. I wouldn’t want to be in her shoes so I gave her many chances because I’ve never lived away from my family, and I wouldn’t know how it feels.
Number one on my list now is to find myself a new babysitter, I’m clueless what to get this time, I’m thinking a Sri Lankan. I hope this time I’d have better luck.